I'm not in a particularly bad mood just now... but it's a lonely and depressing feeling...

I guess I still feel guilty because a lot is going on... My parents think I should apologize for half a dozen things that I don't think require or advocate any apologies, or that I've already apologized for. I'm living in Daniel's place right now, despite the fact that he's my ex and I'm seeing Alex... It's much better than being with my folks right now, but worse too...

Agh, I'm so confused... lonely too... I hate it that I don't have my car again and I can't go to see anyone... I hope Alex and Paul and I can get our very own place soon, so I can get my stuff out of my parents' house...

You can stop reading if you don't wanna listen to my bitching and whining, it's just me, being off-my-meds and depressing again. It just seems like I've come to a standstill again... I hate standstills... even my RPs and drawings and writings are coming to a standstill... hate it. It sucks...

...Dad even cut us off from doing our music thing together... I hate that most of all... I mean, isn't the music supposed to be there no matter what? ...I really feel like none of this life is worth it at times like this... but I gotta remember the people in my life too... I think too many would hate me more than miss me for killing myself if ever I did attempt something like that...

I don't care if I am fishing for sympathy right now, doesn't every human being need it in their lives, at least once? ... ... too many thoughts in my head... maybe I just need to cry for a while, crying can be a good thing...

... Uhm, just so you see... I did post new writing, and I'm still sketching in my spare time... but with no scanner, who knows when they'll see the dA spotlight... and I've got a nice V for Vendetta sketch started up too...